Keeping busy

It was not until I got in to bed last night that the full force of Michelles death hit me.
I rang Victor last night and almost expected him to say,its ok mate its all been a mix up ill just go fetch her.

We had to keep busy today

Lucy and Daniel would keep an army busy so I guess you could say I always am going to busy.
I didnt feel like venturing out,even though the sun shon today for the first time in months,i wanted to stay in the comfort of my own home surrounded by all things safe

So we baked....................again!!!!

We ended up with lightning Mcqueen!!

It was a good rememdy for taking my mind off the sad thoughts and I cherished every moment of watching my two little twinkles playing together,mixing,testing,testing and more testing.

I normally only bake when Lucy is having an afternoon nap as we really have to watch her diet due to her condition but today I wanted her to join in the fun.......life is too short!!!

R.I.P Michelle

I learnt today that my best friend of 30 years has passed away at the age of 41
She has left a husband and 2 children.Charlie 7 years old and Tom 5 years old

Michelle I just wanted to say its not fair,you have had your share of health problems and troubles
I remember the night I was with you when you had to rush to your dying fathers bed side and the sad and cruel way that you lost your mum.
I remember the time you had off school waiting for kidney transplants,i remeber your greif when you didnt think you would have children due to all your treatment

But most of all I remember the funny,crazy,positive girl you were!!!
Everything that life threw at you you made light of,you never let things get you down,you always laughed and gave a ray of light over everything.
You gave birth to two beautiful boys Tom and Charlie,I know you will be looking down on them.

I remember in class at school when you always wore your hair over your ears as you hated your ears and when you had them pinned back and moaned cos you couldnt wash your hair for weeks.

I remember when we had a fall out over something silly and you sat next to me in class humming the whole lesson so you didnt have to speak to me.

I remember chosing your first curtains with you for your first house,remember those awful fruit explosion things with the matching border.

I remember wondering how your house always managed to look so fab with 2 lively boys running around.

I remember you being my bridesmaid and flashing your bum to the camera.(I still have the video)and the wonderful champagne breakfast that victor made for us.

I remember naming my daughter after you Rebecca Michelle

I remember my son being born on your birthday

I remember the last time we spoke.........not long ago!!! and we promised to see each other,meet in the middle you said.


I will never forget you and I dont fear coming to heaven when its my time as I will have my best and most loyal friend there

RIP love always Sally

Happy bakers spreading the love

This school break has been all about baking,buiscuits,cakes and icing,with sticky floors to proove it!!

My little Lucy chef was in full action in her own little kitchen,its so sweet watching her play mummy and make cups of tea along with all the slurping noises for effect

Lucy and Daniel enjoying afternoon tea,as I cooked for all the family.They babbled and babbled to each other and Daniel decided he was making cross buns!!! I think I would like to taste his cross buns,maybe they are not so happy cos they are being eaten.

Daniel always makes me smile when I give him one of those looks when he is being naughty and says"mummy stop looking at me with cross eyes"

Here are our valentine buiscuits that I ended up taking to a girly night with friends,just because the recipie I made for the event turned in to a total disaster so they saved the day and all the girls were taking a heart or two back to their husbands and loved ones as a last minute valentine gift,

Glad I assist sending a little romantic gesture back to a few homes in the end so I didnt feel quite so bad turning up with my kiddies hand baked hearts after all

Evie Rose is so sweet

Beckie has been here for a couple of days,we have laughed and cried so much,its been a crazy couple of days and its already feeling very quiet in the house without our little Evie and her squeals and sweet little smiles

Evie you have quite a mummy there to look after you,you are a lucky little girl,life will always be fun!!

Rather random

Please excuse the randomness of my posts.I am revamping my blog (with the view to actually posting more) and I decided I wanted larger pictures and have been playing a little!!!

I have not blogged about all the problems we have had recently with Daniels school but I decided to move him to a new school for a fresh start as he has been so very withdrawn and he has just finished his first week at a smaller village school where he only has to share a classroom with 11 other students.

Slowly my little boy is coming back and his anxiety is clearing and I am so glad I made the choice to move him,we just didnt realise just how badly he had been affected and how overwhelmed he had been at his old school.

Its so sad that his first taste of scjhool life was such a bad experience for him but we hope he can forget and move on very quickly

All in a year

Here is a photo taken of Megan one year apart at her formal
She is blossoming and growing in mind and body and she is turning from girl to lady very fast its hard to keep up
I love you Megan even when you are a pain!!!

My luverly lot: I have not forgotten you!!!

My luverly lot: I have not forgotten you!!!

I have not forgotten you!!!

Ok OK I have been so slack in my posts
I have no excuse and not enough space to fill in the gaps.
Birthdays,christmas,proms,holidays,chicken spots and best of all a new baby..........I have missed putting them all on so maybe I can try and catch up a little and promise to post with a little frequency,till then I will leave a little taster of our life in pictures

Daniel is 5

My big boy is 5,its all going to happen now,he is growing up way too fast,
We held a party for him last weekend and we had a day building all his gifts.

I am an expert lego builder now!!

I took him to a large model shop with his birthday money from his nanny and he brought a speed boat and is made up with it,thanks nanny!!

Wish we had a bigger pool to sail it in though,maybe a trip to the boating lake is on the cards

Summer has been.....

Lets sum up the summer so far
Hot,rainy,sunny,cloudy,muggy,fresh.......we have had all weather and we have had some fun,tears,laughter,joy,stress,noise,peace,squabbles,love

Daniel has grown,he has learnt to ride a bike without stabalisers he has had a new x box and Lego,he is looking forward to starting school and very much looking forward to his fun time factory party and his 5th birthday

Megan has grown taller than her mummy,she has become a fashion addict,mainly for jack wills and joules clothing,never the cheap stuff
She is now 12 and has guinee pigs,I have always said no to furry pets till now.Megan is growing up but still so young in many ways,this time I shall hold on to she will be a young lady soon

Lucy is turning in to a funny,stroppy little cheeky girl,a bit of a daredevil,always climbing and can say a few words now
Bumbum
Baby
Daddy
Daniel
Cuddle
Barbeque
hiya
yes
balloon
yumyum
boat
quack quack
I was asked yesterday at her almost 2 year check how many words she said and I really didnt know so there I am sure I will think of some more

Beckie............is expecting her first baby!!!!!WOWSERS

Pictures say a thousand words so here is a little taster of our summer to date

I love Amy butler

Her prints and patterns are amazing and I thought I would share my latest creation from the little stitches book.

The pyjamas were quite easy to make and I think I will try and make a bigger pattern and make some for Megan and Daniel.

I had a slight problem in that i sewed the front panels the wrong way and couldnt be bothered to satrt again but its not made much of a difference.

I always goof up somewhere along the line.

And bunny comes too

I had some of the material from the bunting left over and now we have a new member to our animal brigade.
I have been told by Daniel that he would like an army bunny!!! I am not sure it will be quite so cute in army style but I will rise to the challenge and post army bunny very soon

I Love bunting!!

I love the way it can transform a room and I made this bunting from some tea towles that I could never bring myself to use as they were so pretty.

I feel like it brings that holiday feeling in to a room.

Getting all crafty

I have the craft bug and here are a sample of my first projects,the first dress I made was the first ever time I had used a pattern (apart from making a bag once)

I then got a little adventurous and cut a pattern out from one of lucys dresses,this was harder but I loved the finished results.

The hardest thing is to get my baby girl to model them.

Thanks Mum

It was my birthday yesterday and I had a lovely day,even though I spent most the morning at the hospital waiting for a bodged appiontment for Lucy that never happened,but thats another story!!!

Any way just as I thought that I could have no more surprises a knock at the door came and there were these beautiful flowers from my mum.
Just wanted you see how lovely they are Thanks Mum,Love you lots XXX

First steps,a bumpy ride

Lucys fist video of her walking,she really didnt hurt herself when she bashed her head on the camera.!!!

Name that room

I dont think my children will get mixed up whos room belongs to who.
I really enjoyed decorating the wall names and have now started Megans,she is way more fussy and has bigger demands for her letters but I will post the results as soon as I am done.

The weather is starting to get better so I am trying to get all the indoor jobs out the way before the sun starts to shine as then I will be spending time combing the beaches,long walks,picnics,ahhh hurry up summer!!